This is one person's story; everyone will have unique experiences on their own path to recovery and beyond. Some stories may mention eating disorder thoughts, behaviors or symptom use. Please use your own discretion. And speak with your therapist when needed.
It’s time we had a talk. I’m sorry I hurt you in the past. I’m sorry for the negative words, the harsh criticism and hurtful actions. I know you deserve better and I DO/WILL love you exactly as you are. I promise to tell you how beautiful you are to me. To commit to treating you kindly and celebrating all that you do for me. I pledge to view exercise as a source of health and not as a way to fight or control you. When I look at you I will see possibilities and blessings, not problems and shortcomings. I promise to allow you to rest and find balance so that you can reach your full potential. Because I know that, when given the chance, you can do anything. I promise to live by MY standards, not by the standards of society. I am a REAL person not an edited picture in a magazine. And being myself makes me ten times more beautiful than what you see on TV. I realize that the words healthy and skinny do not have the same definition. I promise to stop fat talk and encourage those around me to do the same. I pledge to be a model of confidence and strength for younger generations.
And, I promise and commit all of this to you. Not out of societal pressure that tells me who I should be. OR from my critical internal voice that tells me I need to fit into my skinny jeans but because I love my body and the opportunities it has given me.
I know that love is louder than…the desire to be perfect, the size of my clothes, insecurity.
LOVE (love, love, love) is always louder.