1.) Feeling happy. More or less.

2.) I saw a friend today who is always triggering for me to be around. That was a challenge.

3.) I plan on BEING ON TIME to therapy tomorrow. Being on time is not a forte of mine and never has been!

4.) I’m grateful for supportive friends who don’t leave my side. For obvious reasons.

5.) I liked that I gave myself permission to take a short nap today.

katie111 - 27 February 2011 11:03 PM

I drew on myself the other day when I was in a really rough place…and I think I’m going to keep that up—there was a physical reminder on my body (kept me grounded and focused and helped me reframe awful situations).

Katie, this sounds awesome—although, I’m sad that you’re having such a rotten time recently. :( Please keep popping back in at this check-in thread so I don’t keep worrying about how you’re doing! <3

(Not a) Happy Monday!

1. I’m feeling completely manic still. I didn’t sleep much last night as a result, so I have this weird polarization between feeling absolutely dead and so energetic that I’m crawling out of my skin!

2. Yes, I’m struggling with my meal plan. I haven’t had a high percentage (of requirements) since I started trying again in the last few weeks. It really is bumming me out. The dreaded why-bothers have set in. Ugh.

3. Aside from meditating this morning, I plan on doing a few things to prepare for DBT. I want to do a couple of exercises, like thought records and dysfunctional thoughts analysis. Maybe I’ll do that at work instead of working, since I can’t concentrate when I’m this effing manic anyway!

4. I am grateful for breath today. When I consciously breathe in and aim to fill my diaphragm and lungs (instead of shallow chest breaths), I feel so much more mindful and grounded.

5. Despite my NBI (negative body image), I like my new hairstyle.

Ashe - 28 February 2011 08:08 AM

(Not a) Happy Monday!

1. I’m feeling completely manic still. I didn’t sleep much last night as a result, so I have this weird polarization between feeling absolutely dead and so energetic that I’m crawling out of my skin!

2. Yes, I’m struggling with my meal plan. I haven’t had a high percentage (of requirements) since I started trying again in the last few weeks. It really is bumming me out. The dreaded why-bothers have set in. Ugh.

3. Aside from meditating this morning, I plan on doing a few things to prepare for DBT. I want to do a couple of exercises, like thought records and dysfunctional thoughts analysis. Maybe I’ll do that at work instead of working, since I can’t concentrate when I’m this effing manic anyway!

4. I am grateful for breath today. When I consciously breathe in and aim to fill my diaphragm and lungs (instead of shallow chest breaths), I feel so much more mindful and grounded.

5. Despite my NBI (negative body image), I like my new hairstyle.

How did the rest of the day go?

1. Feeling real restless today. My mind is in a bit of a rush, but I’m sort of stuck just thinking and not doing much (well, compared to my normal don’t-stop-ever) today.

2. Challenging today… eating. Body image. Not letting ed creep back into my life (get the f away!)

3. I am going to paint tonight!

4. I am grateful for the library :D I have a ton of books checked out!

5. I have always been a nail biter and a few months ago I gave up biting 2 of my nails. I was noticing today how lovely they look (esp compared to the rest, haha).

1.) In general, depressed…empty, sad, forlorn, stressed, weighed down, overwhelmed, used, unwanted, helpless, selfish
2.) My son had a sub bus driver who didn’t drop him off at the stop (it was early so I wasn’t there when it came, which I normally am—he was just five minutes earlier than the earliest the normal bus driver was there—so I was getting ready to head out the door just in time to see it at the stop…then drive by as I got to the driveway)...so I had to figure out how to get my autistic son back from the bus that drove away…stressful…also, I had some fb drama which was leftover family drama…I’m so overwhelmed…
3.) ummm…I was MOSTLY following my meal plan today…and I’m going to my appointment tomorrow…and I stood up for myself in three situations today that were highly intense…I found my voice and used it (assertive is new for me, because it requires confidence, which I’m just starting to build)
4.) Ummm…for the neighbor that helped me figure out the bus-drama…I gotta write her a thank you note!!!
5.) Oddly, this is a physical thing…but I’m liking the length of my hair today…yes, it’s all split-endsy and not styled…but I’m loving the length…and I’m going to go with that…

chickadee - 27 February 2011 11:41 PM

1.) Feeling happy. More or less.

2.) I saw a friend today who is always triggering for me to be around. That was a challenge.

3.) I plan on BEING ON TIME to therapy tomorrow. Being on time is not a forte of mine and never has been!

4.) I’m grateful for supportive friends who don’t leave my side. For obvious reasons.

5.) I liked that I gave myself permission to take a short nap today.

Were you on-time?

Good for you on taking a nap!

Ashe - 28 February 2011 08:08 AM

(Not a) Happy Monday!

1. I’m feeling completely manic still. I didn’t sleep much last night as a result, so I have this weird polarization between feeling absolutely dead and so energetic that I’m crawling out of my skin!

2. Yes, I’m struggling with my meal plan. I haven’t had a high percentage (of requirements) since I started trying again in the last few weeks. It really is bumming me out. The dreaded why-bothers have set in. Ugh.

3. Aside from meditating this morning, I plan on doing a few things to prepare for DBT. I want to do a couple of exercises, like thought records and dysfunctional thoughts analysis. Maybe I’ll do that at work instead of working, since I can’t concentrate when I’m this effing manic anyway!

4. I am grateful for breath today. When I consciously breathe in and aim to fill my diaphragm and lungs (instead of shallow chest breaths), I feel so much more mindful and grounded.

5. Despite my NBI (negative body image), I like my new hairstyle.

lol—I read this after I did mine…I think it’s funny that we both posted about our hair…I swear I didn’t read it until I posted my answers…I’m so amused!

chickadee - 28 February 2011 07:18 PM

1. Feeling real restless today. My mind is in a bit of a rush, but I’m sort of stuck just thinking and not doing much (well, compared to my normal don’t-stop-ever) today.

2. Challenging today… eating. Body image. Not letting ed creep back into my life (get the f away!)

3. I am going to paint tonight!

4. I am grateful for the library :D I have a ton of books checked out!

5. I have always been a nail biter and a few months ago I gave up biting 2 of my nails. I was noticing today how lovely they look (esp compared to the rest, haha).

What kind of painting?

Also, way to go on the nails!  :D

I’m loving this idea!  Thanks Ashe!!! :)

Thank you for the birthday wishes :) It was a good birthday.

In reading how your days have been going, I’ve noticed that you all - even though you’ve had some difficult times - you all sound so positive and strong. I’m guessing you weren’t necessarily feeling that way at the time but it looks like you have been working really hard and that takes such strength! I think this thread was a fantastic idea. It’s so easy to overlook successes because we’re obsessing about what we’re struggling with.

My check in today:

1. Tired. I took two days off of work last week and stayed up “late” to watch the Oscars so getting up at 5:30am this morning for work SUCKED.
2. I feel like I’m sort of in a gray area emotionally. Meaning I cannot pinpoint exactly how I’m feeling but I know it’s not extremely good and not extremely bad. I do not like the gray (as I’m sure many of you can relate too!) so it’s difficult. I’m trying to accept this middle ground.
3. I am going to read a book I’m enjoying and get to bed early tonight.
4. I am grateful for my sisters. Besides being amazing women they are so supportive of me during this journey.
5. I liked that when my boss told me they fired someone in my department today (meaning more work for me), I didn’t freak out!

chickadee - 28 February 2011 07:11 PM

How did the rest of the day go?

Oh, worse. Haha. At DBT group last night, I got a rush of lightheadedness and fought off intense dizziness and fainting until after group. The therapist made it a requirement that I get checked at urgent care before returning. So, reluctantly I did. Turns out that I was dehydrated and they had me on an IV for fluids and electrolytes. Groovy… But I was very exhilarated the whole time! Damn mania.

chickadee - 28 February 2011 07:18 PM

1. Feeling real restless today. My mind is in a bit of a rush, but I’m sort of stuck just thinking and not doing much (well, compared to my normal don’t-stop-ever) today.

I hear you on this. My thoughts have been racing and I’ve been completely unfocused for about three days now. Mine is related to being bipolar, I think. Or it’s a medication issue. Don’t rightly know. Are you feeling better? And have you been feeling this way long?

katie111 - 28 February 2011 09:34 PM

lol—I read this after I did mine…I think it’s funny that we both posted about our hair…I swear I didn’t read it until I posted my answers…I’m so amused!

Bwahahaha !! We’re so funny. :P

katie111 - 28 February 2011 09:32 PM

My son had a sub bus driver who didn’t drop him off at the stop (it was early so I wasn’t there when it came, which I normally am—he was just five minutes earlier than the earliest the normal bus driver was there—so I was getting ready to head out the door just in time to see it at the stop…then drive by as I got to the driveway)...so I had to figure out how to get my autistic son back from the bus that drove away…stressful…

Okay, this whole thing is pathetic. Seriously. There’s a reason why city buses have to sit at a stop if they’re early - so people can get on if they’re just “on-time,” right? It seems like there should be that same expectation with school buses for the sheer fact that they are transporting children! (I mean, even kids without autism have rides/people who meet them at the busstop for safety reasons.)

What a joke! Glad it got sorted out…

katie111 - 28 February 2011 09:35 PM

I’m loving this idea!  Thanks Ashe!!! :)

I do it for… I mean, out of… love!

*Muah!*

tweedy - 28 February 2011 09:48 PM

In reading how your days have been going, I’ve noticed that you all - even though you’ve had some difficult times - you all sound so positive and strong. I’m guessing you weren’t necessarily feeling that way at the time but it looks like you have been working really hard and that takes such strength! I think this thread was a fantastic idea. It’s so easy to overlook successes because we’re obsessing about what we’re struggling with.

There’s a reason why I built it the way I did. I wanted a majority of the focus to be put on the positive aspects (healthy/positive choices, reflection on gratefulness, and self-affirmation. It’s important to recognize what challenges us, yes, but it’s equally if not more important to remember that we’re not just a box of challenges. So easy to fall into that. Glad you’re finding it helpful! *Muah*

tweedy - 28 February 2011 09:48 PM

Tired. I took two days off of work last week and stayed up “late” to watch the Oscars so getting up at 5:30am this morning for work SUCKED.

Oscars bit me in the bum for sleep, too. I just HAD to watch the whole thing. Haha. I had trouble sleeping anyway, but I get up bright and early at 5:00, and you feel that. All day. Yuck!

tweedy - 28 February 2011 09:48 PM

I feel like I’m sort of in a gray area emotionally. Meaning I cannot pinpoint exactly how I’m feeling but I know it’s not extremely good and not extremely bad. I do not like the gray (as I’m sure many of you can relate too!) so it’s difficult. I’m trying to accept this middle ground.

I can relate. I can understand how frustrating you must feel not knowing something seemingly as basic as what you’re feeling. Just remember that there are a lot of us (especially me) who struggle with that. (((hugs)))