So I’m am new to this site. It seems as though I will get something out of it and that it is helpful. So I am just going to throw this out there and be honest and see what happens. My friends don’t understand EDs every time it is brought up it is followed with a fight. They try to understand and help but they just don’t get it. Me and one of my friends even have this deal going on and I just can’t do it! I feel so lost, so alone, so helpless and hopeless. I just want to be pretty and thin and to like what I see and how I feel and to be told that. And it seems that no one understands. They want me to be honest and talk about it but I just don’t see the point in it if they don’t get it and end up saying they aren’t the person to talk to cuz they don’t understand why I do what I do or the thoughts that go through my head. I just am so stuck and need some hope, help and understanding.

Are you in treatment right now?  This is a great thing to talk about with your therapist.  But, as someone who is in treatment for ED-NOS, I can so relate to your post.  It *IS* difficult to get “support” and to talk it over with people-even people you’ve thought of as your BFFs find it hard to understand if they haven’t been through it.  Have you read Jenni Schaefer’s books about getting rid of ed and life after ed?  You’d probably find them helpful!  She talks about choosing the RIGHT people for your process (not just ANY people).  They don’t have to understand what you’re going through or why you do the things you do or think the things you do—they just have to believe you, love you, listen to you, and encourage your recovery process.

Thank you. That helps a little bit. Its all just so frustrating and overwhelming in every aspect of it. No I am not in treatment I am trying to get MN care so I can hopefully go to treatment. Again Thanks for sharing your thoughts.

No problem!  I hope your application with MN Care goes quickly! :)