Hi Allie~
I am sorry you are feeling so much sadness, but know that you are not alone here. You are right, sometimes sadness does seem very deep, and like it may not ever stop hurting so much. Sometimes when I am very sad I tell support people that my heart hurts and then I tell them why. For me it is often easier to physically say “my heart hurts” rather than “I’m sad” especially because it often somehow feels deeper than plain old sadness and it just hurts to the core (my heart). There may be a lot of sad people out there, but in the scheme of life sadness is included in the “normal” range of emotions. I believe sadness happens (for me anyway) for a reason. Sometimes I am able to investigate that reason right away when the sadness hits, and sometimes I feel better to distract with something that soothes me (usually music or art) and figure it all out later. Either way in my experience I try to no longer stuff my feelings and for me it is best to allow the feelings come and I will deal with them in the way that seems right for the time and place. I am careful to make sure that if I do happen to put my feelings off for a bit to ALWAYS come back and let them have their time, but I’m also very mindful about making sure that I don’t get “stuck” in the feeling and let it completely consume me for great lengths of time. For me this process is a balancing act that I am ever fine-tuning as I move along in life. I know it sounds cliche, and I’m sure you have heard it before, but I do know at least in my own experience, that “this too shall pass”.
Peace,
Superwoman