Hello,
I saw my doctor today and let her in a little bit about my eating disorder that has flared up recently. I feel too old to be struggling with this, and the last thing I need right now is more stress, but I am afraid that this thing will get in the way of me living my life like I want to. I was anorexic and bulimic, one or both, for most of the past 17 years. I had some periods where I was fine. I’ve been way way up in weight, and down too. But I am having some issues with bulimia now, and anorexia too. And it’s starting to affect me, energy wise, and some other symptoms too. My partner and friends are concerned. And I guess I am concerned too.
I am very worried that addressing this issue will take over my life. I am just starting to rebuild it after drug addiction and right now I want to focus on my strengths! I need to get a job and be healthy. So I am concerned that there will be a huge time commitment. I am also concerned about insurance coverage. My family will absolutely not know about this; I’ve put them through too much and it’s time to address this with myself, with my partner, with my friends I choose to call family.
I am just very scared tonight. I don’t want to get in over my head. But I *am* in over my head with my eating disorder. It’s getting silly now.
Thanks for any advice/support/suggestions.
